Self-harm
It gives you a lot of shame, makes you feel guilty and you feel completely hopeless and even more painful to your family members. Day by day you ask God to change a situation and you think that maybe provoking harm to you physical body it´s the way in which you will make God take notice of you, thinking that if He does not deliver from that exhausting situation it might be because you´re a utterly failure.
It does not change your situation, rather, just make it worse because now you´re not only hurting yourself by also your loved one. But, that´s not yet the whole truth because you don´t want to share what´s in your heart with anyone else, you think that you are a burden when the truth is the other way around. There´s always a better way to deal with pain, but you are stuck in this vicious cycle and wondering for how long can you keep putting up with it.
The answer is found in God who created you with a purpose and for a reason, there are a range of options available if you really want to solve a problem, mostly of them are long-time and mid-time answers. It´s foolishness to walk in this path of self-destruction, no matter how much it going to take to healing finally come, it is still far better than inevitable destruction of your body
